"December 30th, The Incident of Familial Endeavors" in Ginsberg Ramble-o-Vision
A Stream-of-Consciousness Beat rant by me
I mainly remember that I really needed to piss. Seatbelt digging in all Iron Maidon-like with pressure to boot in the back back back seat of the SUV when Damn says I I really need to piss. I didn't get out 30 minutes ago as a form of protest as an immature refusal against this familial ambition, this tri-generational escapade. Or maybe I just didn't need to piss 30 minutes ago. Upsy upsy up the mountains we went and these great feminine curvyswerves of majarani collarbones is what these look like. I swears, says I that this is what the Hindus preach when they a-preach of beauty B E A yootee. And the four wheels drive in AllWheelDrive-ness up gravelly stone covered paths with big bald trees that make up these great feminine curvyswerves of majarani collarbones and I surveys them and I try to count all of them encroaching like the English dogs who kidnapped all those majaranis and shot pictures of their curvyswerve collarbones for photos in their english newspapers and their english pamphlets for english tourists and I sees all this and I swears I just go limp around this bend when there breaks this opening and all below becomes a burnt-fat-brown buncha toothpicks naked grappling for bits o' sky to cling to open wide like Godly cereal bowl (me being some crispy critter milk white girly bit) all muscles file chptr. 11 and i think i pissed a little outa slow shock outa fascinating outa silent stun gun face slap. Not from a devastated knock-ed down-ed forest or a lovely woody wonderland those big cliches But because I says We could use this I says to myself I see mini-malls I see golf courses I see billboard all could pile up to my level all this space we could accomadate It's enough to make a grown girl cry. Why can't we uproot these curvyswerves to input graceful flatness complete with XXX clubs and AA meetings and 36D flight attendants and BYOB 3D theatres and B minus calculus students who play GTA in PJ's? Why can't we sterilize the waters to a lovely orange and frolick in sweet jumpsuits? All the little junkie hippie couples will fuck by the stream like 3 eyed rabbits and Skip McMannis will tell Ethel LaTonne that she has the collarbones of an ancient majarani and she will be alone in all comparison. And downsy downsy down the mountains we go Even more tumultuous than beforesies passing all levels of ear snapping trotting and back on Earthy pavement road there's a foggy veneer on the windows and my grandfather scrapes it off hurridly as if he cannot stand it its an impulse from his defibrillator shocks his arm up jolty-like to clear to mountain spit from sight. All thinks I is I left my lip balm. my balm is back in Gilead you heard me there IS balm in Gilead tell me tell me he implored and that raven could at least have told the poor man that. I knew I was in the country when I finally gets outa the car (to piss) and I hear *HONK HONK* " bay-bay! " from a grungy cum-white pickup shouted noonoclock shadowed bumpkin saints and alls they saw was my back anyhow They just don't get the city girls out there do they? The bathroom in the linoleum establishment was o'er par if I do say so over frosted texas sticky buns and foil-covered fried chicken and other southern fare there were two locks on the door and a full canister of soap the lighting wa'nt florescent but a pale naked light bulb and I looked better for wear actually kinda sexy I would say and I could lick my own collarbone if I tried. Can looked recently cleaned but in the light I couldn't really tell there weren't those sandpaper safety covers and there was a mirror behind me and a mirror in front one big lie lets you think you can see the back of you But surrounding reruns back and back and back and back and all you see is just your actually kinda sexy front so there's nothing to assure those bumpkin saints' approval. I'll take their horn for it. Backsy backsy back in the SUV knees up to chin behind ancient damnations and they smell. Empty and cramped-up in layers outsy outsy out we go to "Almost There" but as farsy farsy far as I be concerned the day is over.
- end.
I can get used to writing like that. feel natch'al.